20 Years Of Sorrow Loneliness And Wasting Away

20 years of Sorrow loneliness and wasting away 

It has been 20 years since Islamic terrorists attacked the United States by bringing down the World Trade Centers, the Pentagon, and the plane crash in Pennsylvania. When this terrible attack happened America rose up as our ancestors did when Pearl Harbor was attacked by Japan in 1941. We came together and we helped each other. We sent our men and women of the military off to fight to give an account for us. We cheered as they left in airports across the country. We were in a fight for our country. We had to let the terrorists know they did not win. We did this for many many years. We lost so many servicemen and women in the fight we did not ask for. 

For those of us that lost loved ones on September 11th, 2001. it only seems like yesterday and not 20 years. we live every moment every day in our hearts and in our minds. We cry daily because we love & miss our loved ones so much that it physically hurts us. Some of the survivors that lost loved ones who could not handle the pain decided to end everything and kill themselves. When you see newscasts about your loved one's death every day for many years it puts a strain on your emotion and your mind and it does affect you. I myself have had health problems to get worse over the years and I attributed it to the sorrow, the pain, and heartache of the loss of my loved one Lisa, the lady I was going to marry. I think of her every day. I cry every day but to no avail.  I know she will not be coming back. I strain every day just to get by doing common housework that everyone does without thinking about it. I have to plan it out days in advance so I will be physically able to do it. Living alone with heartache and loneliness compounded by my physical disabilities makes life very hard and very questionable. The life I live is what you would call a living hell. 

Since 20 years have passed things have changed throughout our nation. We were attacked again this time by China releasing a virus that has spread all over the world. As we deal with this virus to this day it has torn our nation and split it into two separate groups. The people that believe the virus is real and what everything the government suggests we do to protect ourselves such as wear masks and get vaccinated for the virus. These people have what is called common sense and should be commended for doing the right thing. Then, we have the other side, these people do not believe they should be forced to wear a mask or get vaccinated for the virus. These people do not understand that we had been attacked in a different way than we were 20 years ago. These people believe making them wear a mask violates their freedom as Americans. What they fail to understand is being free and an American comes with responsibilities and that is to help protect your fellow Americans. So you can say the anti-maskers are un-American. By not doing what the government says is best to do they are putting everybody at risk including the freedom that they cherish so much. So we are fighting amongst ourselves splitting into several different groups. People will not even talk to each other if they are on a different side of this issue and it has turned violent in some cases. With what is going on in the current events overseas and here on the Homeland you can say the terrorists have won.

To my sweetheart Lisa I love you today as much as I did 20 years ago. I think of you every day and I miss you every day of my life. I wonder and think of what we would be doing now, what our kids would be doing, and how they would be growing up being teenagers now. It all makes me so sad and lonely thinking about it but that is all I have. And yes darling it does make me bitter at times. When I see people with their kids talking about marriage it breaks my heart that we're unable to get married and have a family of our own. This time of year is always hard for me sweetheart. I miss you so much till it hurts deep inside my soul. But this year is even worse. Your uncle Ron is missing overseas and we do not know what has happened. Your father is getting reports from the agency but they do not know what has happened. I pray they will find him safe but I am afraid I must prepare for the worst. This will indeed go down as one of the worst September's I've ever had to live through. I love you sweetheart with all my heart. 

Alfred Britt.