It has been 17 years since the attacks of 9/11, it seems to me that it only happened yesterday, the day I lost the love of my life. I have seen so much change in America and most of it not for the good. I see too much of the Muslim influence gaining strength in America. We must remember on 9/11 we were attacked viciously without provocation and over 3,000 of our citizens were murdered on that day. As we remember the 17th anniversary of this tragic event please remember that the victims of that day are still hurting from the loss of their loved ones. A few of the victims have since went on and decided they could not live any longer with the hurt that they have suffered at the hands of those animals.
I was part of a group on a forum for people that lost their fiance's in the event. When I started in the group we had about 30 to 35 individuals that was active in the group. The group disbanded about a year ago after only 10 individuals were left. Some moved on with their rehabilitation, about 15 committed suicide because they could not handle the tremendous loss and change of life they had experienced. As for me the past 17 years has been a living hell of loneliness and despair of what could have been if it was not for the animals that took my loved one’s life. I get angry every single day I wake up alone and remember what was done to so many people and myself. Friends do not understand the loss of this type, the type that we see on the news everyday reminds us of our loss. It is like the loss of the loved ones from the attacks on Pearl Harbor back in 1941. I sit everyday thinking about my Lisa. Friends and family cannot understand why I have not moved on. It is because my life was destroyed on that day 17 years ago the life we had planned, the children we were going to have, the ranch we were going to start and the love of each other to pull us through that is gone. People that say they are friends do not come by to see me they do not even call me I wonder sometimes if it is because they do not know what to say or do they just not give a damn.
My darling I think of you everyday and my love for you is just as strong as it was when I asked you to marry me. I wonder every day what we would be doing if we were together and it saddens my heart that I will never truly know. You brought a ray of sunshine into my life a brilliant golden light that went straight to my heart and down into my soul. As I travel down this lonely road of life alone and full of despair the only saving grace I have are my memories of you and I. We had good times and bad times, but together our love for each other pulled us through. We always stood by each other no matter what the circumstances. I remember when I got hurt and could no longer work for the bureau. You told me that you would stand by me no matter what, that we had been living by the wedding vows that we were going to be taking in June of 2002. You told me you would be by my side and support me in anything I would do. So sweetheart on this 17th anniversary of me losing you please remember I love you with every fiber of my being and you are still and will always be my Love of a Lifetime.
Alfred Britt.
